I haven't written anything here for a long time. You may think it's because I'm struggling, but actually just the opposite is true. When I stop and consider my life, with all its ups and downs, I find that not only am I happy, but I am thriving!
Sammy's death has given me such a new perspective. I look at things in a whole new light. And it has become so much easier to dismiss things that aren't important and to fight for the things that are. Maybe the very best thing that has come from losing Sammy is how I am raising her sisters. The question I am constantly asking myself is, "If I were to lose her tonight, would I have wished I had done things differently?" I ask myself this when they ask for a Popsicle, when they want to set up the pool or go to the park, when they want me to lay next to them for just one more minute or read just one more story. Because in the grand scheme of things, what does it hurt to have an extra treat? What does it hurt to take 10 minutes to set up the pool? What does it hurt to get in extra snuggles with the ones I love the most? The answer is it hurts nothing. It only makes life more enjoyable and full of love.
Sammy has given her sisters the most amazing gift. She has given them a more attentive, a more thoughtful, a more loving mother.
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I'm so happy to see a post today! I've been wondering how you are doing. And it is great to hear that you are doing so well. Your girls are lucky to have you! (:
What an example you are to your mother! I love having you here! I love being able to draw from your strength and learn from your example. Oh that I were as strong as you!
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Laura, you were already so awesome before! You inspire me. You are truly a wonderful mother to your beautiful girls.
I agree, who wouldn't want to snuggle those girls more? They are such cute and sweet girls.
P.S. I can't wait to see all of you so soon!!!!!
You are so awesome! I'm so glad you are doing well, and you've helped me have a better perspective now too :)
Love ya!
Thanks for your strength and example. What a great reminder of the things that truly are the most important!
i love this post & i'm so happy to hear you're doing well. i'm not even sammie's mom & she has totally changed my perspective on life too! i relate to everything you wrote here. her life really impacted many.
can't wait to see you guys so soon!!
Beautifully expressed. Thank you for sharing the warmth and love your little angel has and continues to bring to your life.
It's a lesson for all of us to learn, thanks for sharing!
Your words are BEAUTIFUL.
I am really thankful for your strong example & LOVE for the LORD. Sammy has given all of us a wonderful gift. hugs!
Oh so pleased that you're finding some joy in the journey again!
I love this. I think about you and Sammy often and I feel like it has made me a better mom too. I am so glad that you are doing so well and that you wrote it down so that on days when it is harder you can look back and remember the things you have learned.
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