See these sweaters? I ordered them in February. They arrived in March. I ordered them a size big for each girl. I was so excited for all four girls to wear them this fall. I had kind of forgotten about them until Makayla put hers on for school. Then Ellie came out of her room with her sweater on. Then Kimmy ran to her room shouting, "I want to match!" It wasn't until I saw all three of them together that I remembered there was another sweater. A little matching sweater size 9 months that was supposed to be for my 9-1/2 month old baby. I started searching through boxes frantically with tears running down my cheeks. And then I found it. I lined up the girls on the couch with their matchy sweaters, just like I had planned to do in February when I ordered them. It was so fun for me to see all the girls lined up there. It reminded me of pictures of me and my sisters lined up in matchy dresses when we were younger. But as fun as it was, it was also a little sad. Sad to see that tiny little sweater that will never be worn by my tiny little girl who left this earth far too soon.
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And now you have me crying! Jerk. :) I've been an emotional mess this week anyway, but this picture makes me smile and breaks my heart. Because it reminds me clearly of being called to see everything you'd ordered that day. And holding Sammy while you pulled everything out to show me those adorable sweaters! I'm so glad I have those memories! Nearly every time you reminisce about Sammy, I can say I was there. Because I was the world's luckiest friend/neighbor/baby whisperer :) and I got to be a part of her life, a part of those memories. I'm glad you're sharing the photo. I know it's not easy for you to do sometimes. But I'm glad I get to see. Love you.
I am glad to see you blogging again, I miss hearing your voice in my head!
I was so sad when I saw your post today. The sweaters are adorable and it must have been bittersweet.
I <3 you!
I bought the same sweaters for my girls, they were such a good deal. I was just thinking about you yesterday and wondering how you were, I love seeing pics of your girls they remind me so much of my little nieces!
Yes, this post made me cry, just like you said it would. However, McKenna's comment made it worse! Thanks, McKenna! It made it worse because I was so far away and didn't get to spend nearly enough time with our angel baby. Maybe that's why I cry everytime I think about her...because I have so few memories of her short little life. Oh how I wish I had taken the time to hold her and love her when I was there instead of doing all the worldly things like cooking and cleaning. Lesson learned!!
I was re-reading all of your posts last night. So this morning when I saw that you had posted- I was so excited.
Your girls are sooo grown up!! Cute sweaters...but where's yours? hehe. Mama's got to dress up like her daughters too! That must have been difficult to see your little baby's sweater...but glad you were able to find it!
That is so bitter sweet. I'm with Janelle...my girls have the exact sweater! It made me think about what it would be like if it was one of my girls taken too soon. I'm so glad you have that family picture of all six of you. Hope you are doing well, I think of you and keep checking your blog for updates. :) Loves.
Families can be together forever, thank goodness.
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