Kasey and I visited with Sammy's doctor last week. He said he received the autopsy results for Sammy. Apparently she died of a rare combination of RSV and Influenza A which caused sleep apnea. She just went to sleep. She didn't suffer. She wasn't in pain. She just took her final breath and slipped peacefully away.
Dr Y had been on the phone all morning with doctors from the CDC and Infectious Disease Specialists. What they told him was that the combination of the 2 diseases was too much for her little body to handle. It hit her hard and fast--she died within 72 hours of her first symptoms. I guess the thing that brought me the most comfort was when Dr Y said that even if Sammy had been in the hospital, the chances of her surviving were extremely slim.
What a blessing to know that if she had to die, she did it in our home where she was surrounded by the people who loved her most! What a blessing that she didn't die alone in a cold, sterile hospital hooked up to machines!
As I look back on the past 2 months I see so clearly how the Lord has prepared us to deal with this tragedy. And when I think of those things, I begin to feel at peace.
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I am sorry you have to go through such a trial, but so happy you are feeling some Peace about it. When I saw you at Sammy's funeral I thought you were amazing. Your faith and testimony was such a testimony builder for me.
Thank you Laura for sharing this. Thank you for being willing and able to open up so that those of us on the outside can learn from you. You are so amazing. Thank you for being such an example. I know it doesn't change much, but it's amazing to see you put such a positive outlook on it and share what knowledge you have of the situation. (forgive some of the words, there are actually some things that don't have words so I'm using the words that I can pull from.)
Being a Mom is such a scary adventure isn't it! Like one of you Fathers or your Bishop said, they don't come with a manual and you just have to do the best you can. Also like he said, you and Kasey ARE WONDERFUL parents!
It's great that she was home with you and her sisters. That she was surrounded by love and warmth. And not in the hospital.
Oh LAURA.
My heart aches for you.
I LOVE the words you wrote.
I wanted you to know that these words have brought comfort & peace to our family.
I wish I could take your families pain away. Truly I do.
I don't know exactly how you feel but I know how I felt when my brother passed away suddenly...and how I still feel.
We had 18 years with him {and it still doesn't feel like enough}
I was amazed when I looked back at how the LORD prepared me for his return to HOME. There is a PLAN & it's PERFECT! I LOVE you guys and THANK YOU for your words.
I would LOVE to hear more about beautiful little Sammy:D
Please call me anytime. HUGS!
Laura- I agree with Veronica. You have so much faith. And I know you are a wonderful mother. All your children are lucky and blessed to be a part of your family.
I am glad she didn't suffer pain as she passed.
I wish we lived closer!
HUGS HUGS HUGS.
Yes I also agree that you are a wonderful Mother. I'm glad that you finally got the autopsy results, when my brother passed away it took forever to get them back.
I too, am glad that your little Sammy didn't suffer.
So I know people keep tell you this.....but Laura you are an AMAZING women. I look up to you so much for the grace that you have. I love you very much!
I found a link to your blog from Stephanie's. I just wanted to send you {{hugs}} and tell you I am so sorry for your loss.
Janalee
I haven't been able to stop thinking of you, your family, and your little Sammy. My heart aches for you all. Like everyone has said, you are SUCh an amazing person...and have such a way with words. I also want to thank you for being so open and willing to share your situation. You never know when you can touch people in different ways. Lots of love!
I've been thinking about you and your family so much and I am happy that you have some answers and that you are beginning to find some peace. I can't imagine what you are feeling, but thanks for sharing your strength with us. My heart aches for you and I am keeping you in my prayers.
Dear Laura and Kasey,
You must be really special parents to have been sent that precious spirit for such a short time. It is a miracle to think that you will be able to raise her in the hereafter. I hope you are finding some peace from what has happened and realize that we are not asked to go through more than we can endure. Know that we have been praying and thinking of you. Love, Brockman's
I'm glad you've been able to get a few answers and are finding some peace as well. We think about you guys often and you're in our prayers. You are a both a great example of true faith and enduring love. We love you guys!
So so grateful she did not suffer! We pray for you continually. So grateful you are recognizing the blessings. I find looking for them daily helps me. Showing gratitude helps us stay close to the Spirit which in turn helps us do what we have to do to see Sammy again. Love you!!
hearing this brought peace to me too. she just closed her eyes & went home! you are so amazing & i love you so much. i wish we could live closer so i could spend more time in the midst of your awesomeness. haha. i just read your previous post too... the words to that song were perfect & brought tears to my eyes to read them again. i can't imagine how much you must miss her. sending lots of hugs your way.
Laura,
I've been praying for you and your family and thinking of you often. I hope you have felt the peace and comfort you have such great faith in. Thanks for sharing your example and faith. You will continue to be in our prayers and we will be sending love your way.
Been thinking about you tonight. I hope all is going as well as they can be. I'm so glad you and Kasey have each other and the Lord to rely on. It helps knowing that even through trials, small miracles and blessings do take place. Lots of love.
The other day I was reading in Pres. Monson's biography and I thought of you. It was telling of a time that Pres. Monson had to console a family that had lost a baby in infancy. It states that he was reading some writing that of Joseph F. Smith. As recorded by Joseph F. Smith, "Joseph Smith declared that the mother who laid down her little child, being deprived of the privilege, the joy and the satisfaction of bringing it up to manhood or womanhood in this world, would, after the resurrection, have all the joy, satisfaction and pleasure, and even more than it would have been possible to have in mortality in seeing her child grow to the full measure of the stature of its spirit." You're faith and testimony is amazing. You're definitely in our thoughts and prayers.
Oh my. Oh my. I ache for you because I have been there. Recently too. About the time your baby came into the world, my 20 month old was called Home. In his sleep as well. Only we have no cause for his death. I know words make nothing better but prayers can. So I will pray for you. With all my heart.
We are documenting our journey of faith, hope and healing as well. I would love to travel this road along with you. No one knows until they've been there. And here we are together.
We'll be in touch -
Amanda
sunshinepromises.blogspot.com
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